First Timothy 2:15

I never considered this scripture until yesterday, when it was brought out in our church service.

15Notwithstanding she shall be saved in childbearing(or child rearing/training), if they continue in faith and charity and holiness with sobriety.

Many times (I know I do) we as mothers look at our daily, mundane activities & think- “I’m doing the same thing day after day after day.  Does it really matter?”  Or if you are really like me- the questions go a little something like this: “Why do I have to keep on cleaning up pee/poop day after day after day?” “Why do I have to listen to constant whining day in & day out?”  “why, why why…”  “why is motherhood so hard?”

Well yesterday I shared with my church family about how I feel like being a mother could help me overcome mySELF.  And how everyday I’m faced with losing more of mySELF.  But the key is HOW am I doing that?  Am I d oing it the correct way?  Am I continuing in FAITH, CHARITY, HOLINESS- WITH SOBRIETY?

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Faith: a : allegiance to duty or a person : loyalty (1) : fidelity to one’s promises (2) : sincerity of intentions

Charity: 1: benevolent goodwill toward or love of humanity

Holiness: 1: the quality or state of being holy

Sobriety: the quality or state of being sober

Am I all those things… daily?  Do I show faith to my family?  Am I charitable?  Am I holy in my attitude?  Am I doing all of those things with SOBRIETY?

Sadly, I have to say, “no”.  I.am.not.  I am just not there yet.  But what I’ve come to realize is this- you don’t get there overnight… it takes a lifetime.  And I also will not get there by having distractions distracting me from my goal as a mother & wife.  I am to be being saved through what I’m doing right now… raising & training children.  By being consistent in what I’m doing.  This is a serious job & it has GREAT significance!  I’m the only person to do this job in my home- me the mother of our children.  If I don’t… who will? But I must do it right in order to continue overcoming mySELF.  With faith, charity, holiness & with sobriety.  I must consider this job important- not just trying to get through this phase & on to the next.  THIS PHASE OR SEASON IS IMPORTANT!!! Our children’s little soils are soaking up everything we say & do- trust me I know… I have a mini me right now!  She is my daily mirror… allowing me to see things I don’t like about myself… things I want to change.

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But… it’s tough.  How do we change?  How do we “get over ourSELF?”  One I believe we need the help of a very merciful LORD.  And two- we don’t need to feel defeated every time we “mess up”.  When we feel defeated we are right where the enemy wants us mothers to be… he wants to defeat us.  So… why do we want to give him what he wants?  We are children of the MOST HIGH!  We need to look up “for our redemption draweth nigh!”  Even when we lose it- “our redemption draweth nigh!”  The key is : LOOK UP!!! Don’t be defeated!!!!  Instead of taking two steps backwards lets STOP & LOOK UP & allow the LORD to hold our hand & simply make the next step without losing ANY ground!  WE can do this!  He wouldn’t have called us to this job (calling) if HE didn’t want us to make it!  It takes a lot of work, but HE wants us to make it!  I intend to- I intend on making it.  I want my children to rise & call me blessed! And I don’t mean that in a selfish, pious way… I want them to call me blessed because they witnessed what the LORD could do with a willing vessel & want that themselves!  That’s my desire.

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I hope that encourages you… it did me. 🙂

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Learning My Season of Life

Learning my Season of Life…

Here not too long ago I was feeling somewhat confused & perhaps a bit discouraged, about what all I was supposed to be doing as a mother/wife.  I felt like a bit of a failure because I couldn’t do all the things I thought I should be doing.  I wasn’t involved in many things… well nothing at church.  We weren’t even at church as frequent as I thought (at that time) we should be.  We no longer clean church- something I’ve done practically my whole life.  No longer did I attend prayer meetings.  Going to church meetings- another thing I’ve done my whole life- has been put on hold for a period of time- mostly due to circumstances of where we live etc.  The list goes on.   I looked at all the things I wasn’tdoing… and in some ways it made me feel like “less than a Christian”, especially when you look around & see other mother’s who are able to juggle it all.

I was really having a hard time.  And even though my wise husband encouraged me often that “this is a season” I still struggled inwardly with all this.  One day I was driving & I began to direct all those thoughts toward the Lord.  And I felt HE answered me- not audibly, but HE caused me to think differently about it.

He reminded me of when I was a single woman of how I worked so hard (Naturally) for HIM.  Doing all the things listed above and more.  I was faithful in those things.  But as I got married & started having children that my service had to turn to them & that by servingthem I was still serving HIM.  I am convicted that my GREATEST service is to my family.  Some may not understand that… but the Bible clearly states the woman’s place in the order of God.

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3The aged women likewise, that they be in behaviour as becometh holiness, not false accusers, not given to much wine, teachers of good things;

4That they may teach the young women to be sober, to love their husbands, to love their children,

5To be discreet, chaste, keepers at home, good, obedient to their own husbands, that the word of God be not blasphemed.

As a mother & a wife my job is clearly stated in Titus 2.  I cannot fully serve the LORD without doing this.  I like how Tara over at Too Many Kids in the Bathtub put it in one of her recent posts.

But often times we we are discouraged in our efforts. Why?

Because we are operating out of the season God intends for us to be in.

I would encourage you to read her post.  It’s VERY good.

I don’t want to be the mom who “does everything” & fails to serve my family- which inevitably means failing the LORD.  Some view that differently I’m sure… but I believe with a proper balance & consistency is key.  I do think you can go so far right… but you can also go so far left too.  And maintaining that balance is a process.

My desire is to operate fully in the season of life that GOD has afforded me NOW!!  I’m the only one that can do this job.  This is my season of life… I’m to learn to walk joyfully in it.  And I’m doing just that… LEARNING.

MC900446418   It’s about the heart… not altogether the actions or the outward appearance.  Who cares if we do all these wonderful things if our hearts & the hearts of our children are not right?  When my children are grown I want them to have a heart for the LORD & not just go through the motions.  I’m still learning the  how  of this… but I think that’s apart of this thing called life… 🙂

I hope this encourages someone today.

“Create in me a clean heart oh God…”

10 Things About Me

I thought I’d introduce myself a little bit by giving you 10 random facts about myself 🙂

Let’s get started shall we?

  1. I’m turning 29 in a matter of days :(.  This partly makes me sad… just because I wonder where all the time goes.  Time seems to fly by the older you get.  Then I’m partly like, “thirty doesn’t look so bad after all”.  *sigh*
  2. I am married to the my best friend & I kid you not- I knew I’d marry him the day I met him.  I actually called my mom & said, “I’m pretty sure I met my future husband”.
  3. I have four of the most precious children & while they can wear my nerves out hourly— I’d lay down my life for them in a heartbeat.  They are the best thing that’s ever happened to me.
  4. I love to be outside.  Winter & I have a pretty much hate:hate relationship.  Between Spring & Fall the kids & I live outside basically.
  5. I have been pregnant for 3 years (not consecutively) & I’ve been  nursing for going on 42 months (again not consecutively).
  6.  I absolutely love coffee!!!  And it’s just awful that I live a bout a mile from Starbucks. 😉
  7. I’m a type “A” person all the way.
  8. While I’m a type “A” person – I’m also a mother which kinda throws my type “A” off quite a bit & sometimes puts me in a tizzy.
  9. I am a homeschooling mother & I love it.
  10. I love all things natural, organic & real

That’s a little about me!  Tell me about you! 🙂